Biography
If someone wrote a biography of my life what would be like? no... more specifically,
if someone would write a biography of me in the future what will it read like?
will it cleverly find a way to link all my actions and experiences i've had so far to explain how I am the way I am and the reasons I have made the decisions i have made?
will it manage to explain through a trace of interpretative history how my life's experiences were translated into my life actions? the "path" that i took to my own personal relative success?

after all thats how you judge a successful life right? a productive life. One in which all experiences contributed to a full sense of being and a powerful sense of action. The goals you set for yourself, based on personal preferences shaped by experiences - problems you see in the world and the way you address them; things you believe in and the way you adhere to them. success is relative, so only you can judge your own success. that is not to say that "everyone is successful". there are goals and meters that we each put out for ourselves and only we can score them. Yeah sure we can lie and make excuses for not meeting them but inside we will know we are letting ourselves down. Ok maybe its not just ourselves, there are plenty of egomaniacs who in their eyes feel extremely successful eventhough they leave a blazing trail of pain and destruction wherever they tread. But the idea is not to let ourselves down, we answer to our honest true self.

{although who at the end of their life is really going to admit they wasted all 85 years of living?, i guess not but then Magnolia like regret has to come into play. Do regret some missed opportunities on your death bed? is there anything you wouldve done differently?}

An unproductive, wasted life.

that would read as a sad biography. he had all this stuff, he had all these experiences but it all amounted to nothing. he got lost and confused between his own heart's optimistic dreams, his parents ideals and the laziness that won the battle over his soul because he lacked external compulsion.

MY BIOGRAPHY WILL NOT READ LIKE THAT.
i will make that deceleration/dedication/decision/determination now.

I will have a productive life! I will find a way to use what I have, the people I have around me and my inner ability to do. My biography will in Lost-like beauty bring together all of my past experiences (my flash backs) to explain who I am, what I am about and what I have come here to do, and how I have done it.

Now that would be a good read.